Reply To: Sense of confirming?
Your post above has been moved to here because it follows up on and refers to things mentioned in this topic/thread, and so would be most helpful to stay in this thread, rather than starting a new topic/thread. I’ve reformatted your post above a bit to try to understand it for myself, perhaps for others, and have added some comments in blue as a part of that. It is a perk of being the webmaster.
If I’ve misunderstood you can correct me in any further replies. And in regards to what to call me (re: text I pulled out), SpiritAwake will do when there is need for a reference.
All that you are describing is pretty common amongst folks called in these ways. Spirit, the Universe, God, Self, however referred to, seems to be calling you into the beginnings of conscious play of Self with self. There are many variations, yet it is the same play.
Don’t try to figure it out, allow Life to play with you and as you. In Truth there is no one to go deeper. Your curiosity, interest and desire to understand is natural, and seems to be working for you now. Perhaps Guidance is calling you deeper, but no knowing.
You are blessed by what is happening, just know that, and let it be your gratefulness that deepens. In Truth all beloveds are blessed, but only a few seem to be called to realize it in any particular lifetime or generation.
You will over time begin to realize, more and more and more, that you cannot do it, so to speak, or know in the way you are presently trying to know, as if there is some map, schematic or alchemical formula you are beginning to decipher. Allow whatever seems to be happening to inform you as much or as little it does, but as a writing on water.
Let your interest be a light rather than an activity, be in each moment true, and Spirit will reveal to you in that light that you are whatever is helpful to you, in Her own timing and Her own way. Interest as in willingness, just a simple yes in your heart.
The best way to know is to be open and allow the knowing to become you, as it will, no holding on to any of it…
This is a journey of many lifetimes in form, so to speak, for most beloveds. It could be this is the last lifetime in form for you. But no knowing, ever. Until even the interest in knowing is no more. Simply allow this possibility that seems to be revealing itself to you take as long as it takes and reveal to you as it will.
It is not a better you, nor a better dream of this world that you are becoming or being called to (same thing). Let yourself truly Love what is leading you, guiding you, calling you. It is That which is guiding all of us, which we always and already Are in Truth, and that we are also and always becoming, for as long as there is a belief in time.